This year has come and gone..
I can't really believe 2005 is over with. Not to sound so prosaic but it really did go by so fast. Most likely because I kept busy. And something else I can't really believe is that I'm moving to Dallas in 12 days and I haven't begun to pack. Everyone keeps asking me "Are you excited?" Yes and no. If I was moving there for fun-Heck yes! But I'm not. I'm moving for a career and after spending 3 hrs tonight looking through online job banks I am a little disheartened. I'm recurrently running into the 'IT Catch 22' or so I like to call it. I cant' get a job unless I have experience and I can't get experience unless I have a job. Huh? Yeah I asked my self that same question. I mean doesn't a college degree count for something anymore? By my efforts tonight-I guess not. Look I don't mean to gripe. I do feel that God has a position out there for me somewhere in Dallas, hopefully not a restuarant position and hopefully something with my hard earned education. Christina said something really great to me the other day.."Becky, you are just looking for a microwave answer to your problem and it is not going to happen that way." And I know why, she said and I know it.. I'm being taught something, patience? perserverence? No.. its more. A blind and desperate dependancy on God for his will in my life. Wow I wasn't planning on writing any of this but I'm glad I got it out. Here is a picture of Julie and I on Christmas. She is trying out the new hairbush our Mom gave us on me.